Category: Writers Block
Jade,
Every time I walk out the door without you, it hurts. I do love this new dog at my side, but I do not love you any less. I promise that if I were to have
things my way, you would still be at my side. I would have been more than willing to let you guide me for another six, seven, ten years. I would have loved
to walk to many avenues of life with you at my side, but sometimes, we do not get to choose what will happen next. My world came crashing in the day I
found out you were going to have to retire. I absolutely couldn't believe that our time together was going to be no more than a year and a half. The irony
of the situation was and still is something I cannot come to terms with. I do not mind my blindness, but yours is not fair. You and I were supposed to
be a team for so long. I can never thank you enough for the strength you gave me, the memories we shared, the times you licked tears from my face, that
laughter you brought, the friendships you helped to forge and the security I would have been lacking without you at my side that first year at college.
I will never forget the first time we stepped out together as a team. I will never forget your quirks and your love for work. I will never forget the pride
in your step the day you helped me through two straight blocks of construction. I will never forget the first day you were mine and how I couldn't sleep
the night before I met you. You were my first guide, and you are still a dear part of my life. You still make me smile, and I still want to make you happy.
I still want you with me, and I still cherish you as I did when we worked as one. Just because another dog has taken your place in the harness does not
mean she has taken your place in my heart. You will forever remain my precious little Jadertot, and nothing can ever change that. So, tonight, as you lay
at the foot of my bed, please, remember that you are still in my dreams, you are still in my heart and you are still a part of who I am and who I will
become. You are still my guide. You show me what it is like to love no matter what. Even though I couldn't keep you living with me, every time I return
home to visit, you love me like I never left you. You forgive before you have time to be upset. You show me what love truly is, and you have made me a
better person. Rest your head my sweet lady. Lay your delicate chin on my foot. Sigh a sigh of the rested and peaceful, because I am still here, and I
will always be yours just as you will always be mine. Our bond was forged in steal, and no one is strong enough to break that. If the day comes when you
can come back home with me, I'll come running. You are eternally woven through my existence.
Deepest love,
Your lesser half
Meg, you almost made me cry! That's hard to do! Very sweet!
I'm sorry your dog died! I know it's hard to loose a pet! I remember when my first guinea pig Emma died! I found her laying on her side in her cage! I screamed and I woke my mom up from a nap. My dad came in my room he asked what happened. Then he took Emma to the back yard. I'm on my second guinea pig now. I named her Emma. When my dad passed away Emma was there for me! After my dad died our neighbor Miss Karen gave me a dog named Daisy. I'm not allowed to give Emma the run of my room. The vet said Daisy may think Emma is a toy and may hurt her by mistake.
Meghan, you did make me cry.
Odd, this is the second time I've read it, you shared it privately and it didn't affect me this way.
It's beautiful, and I'm so glad you decided to share it with everyone here. It's also so you meg, the meg you're too shy to show everyone is expressing right here. Thank you, you said so much none of us who've retired guides are able.
love and hugs.
The dog didn't pass away. She had to retire from work, and that in itself is a huge grieving process for all who have endured it, and for those of us who will have to go through it one day. Meghan, do feel free to e-mail me at any time. This must be a very difficult time for you, and i'm sorry it had to happen much too soon. I hope you are doing well.
Awww Meghanly, I wanted to comment on this when you posted it on LJ but I never did, so I'm glad you posted it here as well. It's so sweet and beautiful. She's a lucky dog, and you're a lucky girl, even though you had to retire her early. You'll always have what she gave you and the memories you share with her. Skwuggles!
aw, how sweet, man that made me tear
Aww how sad but beautiful! I'll have to retire my dog in a few years and it'll be so hard and I'm sure I'll write about it. But that was absolutely beautiful, I cried because I know I'll have to go through it like someone else on here said. But I do wish you the best of luck with the new dog, and your retired one. Big hugs!